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I received my first bit of hate mail.  My first response was sadness.  I felt sad that someone working in a field intended to help people, would communicate such hate towards others trying to do the same thing.  It amazed me that a little two line comment could invoke such animosity, resentment, feelings of inferiority and defensiveness in someone who is apparently qualified in their own field of healthcare. Had the individual not been so highly reactive to compose this long winded attack on me personally and my profession as a whole, they may have noticed that we, as a collective,  embody the exact opposite of conflict and negativity.

This person, unfortunetaly, was not brave enough to leave a real name or email address for either myself or my colleagues to respond to ( yes respond, not defend). As natural and holistic nutritionists, we do not feel the need to defend our credentials, our philosophies, or our practices. The proof that what we do works, is in our results.  The proof is in our clients lives and in many cases in our  own lives. The proof is in each and every cell of our body and in thousands of years of tradition.

This is what happened: Last week, I was reading the Globe and Mail online when an article, caught my attention. It was an excellent article with great explanations, tips and solutions to help people stop snacking through the stress of the workday. Posting any article online that allows people to comment, invites people to do just that. I posted the following response to this article:

No one diet or pattern of eating will work for everyone. This certainly offers some great advice- but sipping on low fat latte’s? Never a healthy option.”

Someone, felt so angered and hateful by this wee little comment to post this defensive response on my blog- which meant they went through my website to get to this place where they could leave this comment anonymously. And this is what it said (and yes- I chose to keep their typos in there- why waste my time editing such nonsense):

“I just read your comment on the Globe & Mail online – “but sipping on lattes? never a healthy option”. I find it amazing and astounding that someone with your credentials (or lack thereof) has the gall to criticize a suggestion from a Registered Dietitian – a nutrition professional with REAL credentials and an actual science-based education. Lattes are coffee and milk and neither one, contrary to what ‘holistic nutritionists’ believe, are unhealthy. Health Canada’s recommendation for caffeine is 300mg per day which is equivalent of about three 250mL cups of coffee. The recommendation for milk & alternatives is two to three servings per day. So tell me then, based on your ‘expert’ option, why sipping on a latté is ‘never a good idea’? I should follow your advice, why? Simply because it is what you believe?

The problem with quasi-professionals such as you is that you speak as though you are the absolute authority of everything related to food and nutrition, however, your education and credentials do not hold up and they certainly do not qualify you to speak so absolutely on the subject. The designation “Certified Nutritionist” means nothing in the real world. You operate your own private practice (as most holistic nutritionist do) because that is essentially the only place someone with your credentials is allowed to practice (expect for maybe a chiropractic office which is a joke in itself). Your education does not qualify you to work in a medical setting such as a hospital, public health unit, community health centre, medical clinic, diabetes education centre, etc. You do not have the credentials to work in these settings, and provide nutritional advice to those patients, yet you fell you have the credentials to question the advice of an RD?

Maybe when you exert your professional expertise in a hospital setting where you are counseling patients with acute renal failure, congestive heart failure, insulin-dependent diabetes, or a combination of all three, will you have the right to criticize an RD. Maybe when you have made nutritional recommendations for a patient in the ICU having to receive parenteral nutrition because he is on a ventilator, will you earn the right to criticize an RD. These are all area where RDs are hired to practice because they are qualified to do so. They have minimum of 5-years of university level education (science-based nutrition and medical nutrition therapy) and medical-based practical training. Do you honestly think your credentials are superior?

The Institute of Holistic Nutrition is a two year program that requires ONLY high school diploma to be accepted. Wow. And grade 12 English is the only pre-requisite course. No high school sciences? 19 courses? And you think this qualifies to provide nutritional advice to people with health conditions? I surely hope you are not counseling people with diabetes, kidney issues or other challenging medical issues.

The field of nutrition is becoming a joke and sadly people like you are the reason. People who are unqualified, yet present themselves as the absolute authority on nutrition. The general public may not be savvy enough to assess your credentials and discern that they are bogus, but those of us in medicine certainly do. We know that you and your holistic colleagues are fakes with no ability to understand or apply the science. We are on to you.”

Reading this comment, the first thing that came to mind was something that one of my teachers often said “Where everybody thinks alike, no one thinks at all”. What is wrong with differing opinions?  And where did I mention anything about the superiority of my credentials?  What made this person so angry to get so personal? As Mr. Tolle wrote in A New Earth, that which you react to in another, is in you. Hmmm. And why would this person waste his or her time writing to little me? Why not get at the big guns out there who are also educating people and curing the very sick with the most basic of healing remedies: whole foods from nature- People such as Dr. Weill, Dr. Oz,  Dr. Cousens, David Wolfe, Brian Clemente,  Michael Pollan, Marion Nestle, and Charlotte Gerson to name only a few.

I can not get angry by such an attack and do not take it personally in the least. I cured my own Crohn’s Disease using the very principles that I studied and that I practice with my clients. I did so by going against the advice of science and against the recommendations of many Medical Doctors and Registered Dietitians.

We are not interested in working in hopsitals, our goal is to keep people out of them, to keep people from getting sick and to educate people on how to reclaim health naturally should they fall ill. I speak on behalf of my colleagues and myself when I say that there is no single practitioner or modality of practice that will suit everyone. We all need to do what is right and as holistic practitioners, we are just an extension of a free-choice health care system that allows those in need to choose how they want to be treated and how they want to manage their health. That, luckily, is a right that we have in this country.

My colleagues and I do our work with a shared purpose. That purpose is not to put other practitioners and practices down, but to support each other in the same goal, which is to bring health and happiness to those that seek our help. We support each other fully. We share information  and we consult together on challenging clients. And we certainly do not put each other down as a way to lift ourselves up. We rise up together, and will continue to do so as people begin to make the connection between natural living, natural foods and the natural state of the human body- which is to be healthy. That is what we are here for.

I shared the nasty comment I received with my colleagues as a reminder that we must keep on doing the amazing work that we do, that we must continue helping people as we do and that we don’t need to fight or defend against the people who choose to keep their minds closed to other options available and to what may be best for their client or patient on an individual basis. The responses I received were highly positive and encouraging, and not surprising, did not put anyone or any other profession down to legitimize our own. We don’t need to do that. Please read below for some of the comments I received and feel free to add your own.

“This [person] definitely does not have an understanding of what “holistic” is, if that’s the garbage that’s coming out of his [or her] head. And how could you give a critical opinion on something you don’t truly know about… Yes, we come across many “non-believers” in this profession but, you can break the laws of men and women, but you can’t break the laws of mother nature. I have yet to come across a low-fat-latte tree. If anyone finds one please let me know ASAP. We’ll patent it, name it Lattezapam, and sell it for a 134,034% mark up.  Here’s to all “underqualified” nutritionists going where no “qualified” dietician/doctor has gone before!”

“Unfortunately the world is full of narrow-minded people who do not understand what we as ‘holistic’ practitioners try to accomplish one person at a time.  I feel sorry for the author of that email because the anger behind their thoughts left to fester will surley be their down fall.  Keep up the good work and we will make a difference.”

“Clearly this person has no experience with health issues and nutrition at all, yet seems to have just done a bit of reading about the basic Canadian Food Guide and regurgitated it. So so so sad.  Oh well, we know what we do helps people.  We both know from personal experience how it can improve our own health and change our lives. I have done the dietitians degree, the five-year course he [or she] raves about and can tell you it is no more science based than our holistic course.  It is so much longer because it is filled up with English and history and geography and all the other electives they make you take that do not pertain to nutrition at all.  In following those guidelines for my diabetes I ended up getting quite sick. Only since I have changed my eating and lifestyle habits, as learned in our holistic classes, have I been able to heal myself, cut my insulin doses in half and feel better. When you are going into insulin shock dietitians recommend a diabetic to eat lifesavers. I guess their science background didn’t quite cover the effect of food colourings and chemicals on the liver which becomes rather compromised in someone with this condition. The proof is always in the pudding. Sometimes we will just have to look past those pompous opinions of those people too often found in the medical/science profession suffering from a condition referred to as “The God complex”.

“This individual went to a lot of trouble to seek you out, find out you are a Nutritionist, know you went to IHN, find out it’s a 2 yr program etc. and write an extremely long long note…. For someone to lash out like they did, there is more to it than this.  Your comment was in no way offensive, but is certainly true. We need to build some really thick skin to shield ourselves from people like this individual.  We’re all here to make the world a better place.  Obviously, this individual respects no one else’s contributions to the health of mankind and no other profession but theirs. Sad, very very sad.  One thing we were taught at IHN was to respect other professions like doctors and dietians.  We all have something to contribute toward helping individuals to achieve optimum health.  Even the Canada’s Food Guide- it is what it is. We do’t go around slashing it, instead we praise them for the beneficial changes they made to it.”

Did you miss me?

I am back one last time (at least I think it will be one las time). I want to thank you so much for reading me over the last couple of years. Despite my last post saying that it was the end of The Healthy Cookie, it certainly isn’t the end of my healthy living.

Over the summer, so much has happened that made me wish I had somewhere to share it. From selling out cooking parties, meeting and helping dozens of wonderful people get on the healthy train, volunteering at an organic farm, spending 10 weeks on an exclusively raw diet, writing my very first draft of my very first book, meeting a few of my wonderful readers in person (and in random places at that), cooking up a storm, farmer’s market hopping, picnicking… You get the idea. Busy bee.

Though The Healthy Cookie is as good as done and the URL will soon be redirecting, I have started a brand new site and I hope you will hop over and join me there. Go to www.meghantelpnerblog.com and subscribe with the RSS feed. My welcome message is already there, awaiting your arrival.

See you there!

Meghan

It all started with a tummy ache and it comes to a close today with vibrant health, blissful happiness and more change than I ever thought anyone possible of. This, my love, is my final post for The Healthy Cookie.All better.

The time, has come and I greet this with mixed emotions. This site began because I was pissed off. I was angry and needed an outlet. I was angry that after 19 doctors and being told that what I was feeling was in my head, I was at last diagnosed with a physical condition. This site tracked my healing, my health, my learning- my life over the last 21 months. I have been attached to it but I do feel it has served its purpose for me and that it is time to let it go.

As I embark on my professional career as a nutritonist, I feel like that phase of the journey has ended. Throughout the process I tried my best to stay focussed on my primary purpose which was to get healthy and stay that way- the outcome has arrived and I am moving forth on to the next adventure.

I am now making as much noise as I can to help get everyone else healthy.

Why do I choose to end it here?

Tomorrow is June 5th. June 5th marks exactly two years ago (to the day) that I had my check-up with the doctor who was the first to recognize that there was something really wrong with me. June 5th marks the day that I found a doctor who looked past my teary eyes and acknowledged that whether my sickness began in my head or in my body- it was real. June 5th doesn’t necessarily mark the day that I began to get better. I did get worse before I got better. But, I do feel it marks the beginning of a chapter in my life that initiated great transition.

I have been busily getting myself set up as a nutritonist. In the process of getting organized, I went through my old files and got rid of whatever I didn’t need. In this clean up, I came across a two-inch thick folder that was crammed with all sorts of medical stuff; biopsy reports, blood work, referral letters, phone numbers and a little torn piece of newspaper.

I unfolded this newspaper to discover my horoscope. The date on this horoscope was September 2nd, 2006. That was one week before I began this blog. September 2nd was the day after I had returned from my initial visit to LA. This was only three days after my diagnosis had finally come and the decision had been made that I would pack up my apartment, put my belongings in storage, postpone nutrition school and move down to LA for three months of acupuncture. September 2nd was the day that, up at my cottage with my family, I had a complete break-down, tearfully declaring that this was all too much for me. This apparently was also the day that I tore my horoscope out of the paper and kept it.

This is what my horoscope said:

Scorpio (Oct. 24-Nov.22)
“Change, when it happens, comes very quickly. Suddenly, your present becomes dramatically different from your past, and your future will be dramatically different, too. You are in the midst of a metamorphosis that is preparing you for an inspiring new direction in your life”.

Well if that isn’t a little bit of crystal ball magic…

The last two years have been the most amazing life education I ever could have received. On this website, I wrote about the lessons I learned along the way. I wrote about sickness and health, about healing, and food. I shared the philosophical teachings I was receiving as I discovered the powerful impact meditation and yoga were having on my life. I shared my life experience relating to nutrition school, relationships, and love. I had sunshine and rainbow posts and frowny storm cloud posts. Mostly I wrote what I felt and believed. Often people agreed and were affected positively and sometimes people disagreed, unsubscribed or wrote me nasty emails. That was their journey. This was mine.

Despite all that I have shared in the 107 posts I have written- the biggest lesson I have learned and that which is proven to me over again is the simple truth that everything happens just the way it is supposed to.

When something seemed bad at the time, it was only because I was looking at the little wee picture. I am now able to see what was in the works and I hold firmly to the realization that getting sick was the best thing that ever happened to me. Getting sick put my life on course.

I have every confidence that the universe gives us exactly the right experience that is needed in order for us to grow and evolve. I have every confidence that things happen exactly as they are supposed to, when we are ready, and that resisting such change, resisting experiences, resisting or working against the flow of nature, will only lead to our own suffering. Bad days are, of course, allowed (the good with the bad remember). We don’t have to love the bad days, but accepting them as part of our total experience makes them easier to live through.

This feels like the end of the journey. I began this writing very sick. I began writing during a summer where all I could eat was the water left behind after boiling root vegetables. I am now healthy and happy and feel calm and content with what I am doing. I continue to welcome into my life the goodness that keeps coming from being in the high vibrational frequency that accompanies this feeling of contentment.

As I have begun to experience closure on two years of dramatic transition, as I settle in to what is as close as I have ever come to a ‘normal’ life, all the people who have been such a big part of the last two years, seem to have made contact in the past two months, as if the closure was being provided for me. This is not to say they are now no longer going to be a part of my life, I just feel very strongly that their role in my life will now change.

I won’t name names as I will most certainly leave someone out. But you know who you are. You are the people who stayed in with me on Saturday nights making soup, reliably made me laugh Sunday evenings, had beautiful babies for me to play with, made regular phone dates to catch up, hung a big yellow hammock and taught me more about myself than I ever wanted to know or admit, made me CDs of melancholic music, put healing needles in me, studied with me, practiced yoga and rode bicycles with me, meditated with me, took Sundays off to escape, adventure and watch sunsets, and best of all, you are the people who hugged me, loved me, and accepted the changes as they came.

I will be keeping the site up a little while longer but any new writing will be sent out with my monthly nutrition updates. You can sign up for my newsletter here if you haven’t done so already.

Slowly, but surely this blog will be dismantled. My goal is that when the last of it is down, my book will be complete. My book will compile a lot of the writing that appeared on this site, along with some recipes and some other loving goodness. The book already has a name, but for a change, I will keep something to myself. The intention has been set. That means the book will happen when the time is right. Everything happens in its own sweet time.

I feel like I should be signing off with some great inspiring words of wisdom. I don’t have any. What I do have is health and happiness and the understanding that there is truly no greater gift in the whole wide world. I hope that through my writing over the last two years, I have conveyed that and perhaps provided some message that has helped you to incorporate a little more of both into your life.

So perhaps what I can leave with are a few things that I know for sure:

  • Happiness is anchored in the present.
  • Health is our own personal responsibility
  • Positive change comes from positive action. Negativity results from aggressive reaction.
  • What we feel and experience today is the direct result of what we did yesterday. If we want to change our experience tomorrow, we must start the transition today. The greatest hindrance to achieving change is sticking with the ever repeating known.
  • Absolutely anything on this earth, anything in this great big wide universe, is absolutely possible.
  • Never ever ever take for granted the warmth of the sunshine and the brilliance of rainbows.

The ultimate goal that I set when I began writing has been achieved. I am a Healthy Cookie.

All my love and in great health,
Meghan

I have written a lot in this blog over the past year and a half about sunshine and rainbows, looking on the bright side of things and always doing my best to encourage you to be your best, to smile at strangers, to take things lightly when possible and let life unfold as it may. As much I encourage everyone else to do this, I try and do the same.

But then there are times when I get angry. Right now, I am angry.

There is a Bill, Bill C-51, being sped through legislation that essentially will make what I do for a living a criminal offense. But I’m a nutritionist you say. That’s right. With this Bill and the slightest word change- the entire natural health industry is in trouble of being dominated, like everything else relating to health and disease, by the pharmaceutical Industry. The following summarizes the little change that has huge impact:

“Among the changes proposed by the bill are radical alterations to key terminology, including replacing the word “drug” with “therapeutic product” throughout the Act, thereby giving the Canadian government broad-reaching powers to regulate the sale of all herbs, vitamins, supplements and other items. With this single language change, anything that is “therapeutic” automatically falls under the Food and Drug Act. This would include bottled water, blueberries, dandelion greens and essentially all plant-derived substances.”

It would become illegal for me to recommend any food for its therapeutic function. Does that mean that ground flax seeds will no longer relieve constipation or that turmeric no longer eases inflammation? Of course not. I just can’t say so. Does it mean that pharmaceutical companies may go the way of ‘agricultural’ companies like Monsanto (which is really pharma as well) and start trying to patent food? I wouldn’t be surprised.

This Bill would make it illegal for me to state that I use food as medicine for its healing properties. It would be illegal for me to either recommend or sell any type of food or supplement for therapeutic purposes. Does this make it illegal for me to give chicken soup to someone when they’re sick? I think it just might.

I believe that there should be some regulation as to who can and can not recommend and sell supplements. I do not, however, think it should be up Health Canada, the FDA or any other governing body controlling this. So yes, this regulation and the fact that it is moving through at an extra super fast speed makes me angry. What really angers me are statements such as the following that I have not been able to find anyone else’s commentary on. (The following comes directly from the bill)

2.3 The purpose of this Act is to protect and promote the health and safety of the public and encourage accurate and consistent product representation by prohibiting and regulating certain activities in relation to foods, therapeutic products and cosmetics.

So that sounds innocent enough right? But it goes on to state the following:

3.1 (1) No person shall tamper with a food, therapeutic product or cosmetic — or its label or package — with the intent to

(a) render the food, therapeutic product or cosmetic injurious to human health; or

(b) cause a reasonable apprehension in others that the food, therapeutic product or cosmetic is injurious to human health without themself believing that it is so.

So then, the government believes Vitamin C to be harmful and dangerous but approving such things as aspartame, margarine (and other hydrogenated carcinogenic oils), Genetically Modified food, and oodles and oodles of chemicals to be used in the growing of our food to be rendered harmless simply because it is governed and went through an approval process. This Bill would make it illegal for me to recommend or sell multi vitamins, and I could have my home raided without a warrant for doing so, but it is still perfectly legal to sell cigarettes at any old variety store as long as the purchaser is of legal age.

4. No person shall sell or import for sale a food that

(c) is injurious to human health;

(d) is adulterated; or

(e) was manufactured, processed, prepared, preserved, packaged, stored or conveyed under unsanitary conditions.

Again, where do GMOs fit in? What about the farmed fish being imported from China? And hello? Since when was CocaCola and McDonald’s not injurious to human health? I’m just asking….

And finally- 12. (1) No person shall advertise, sell or import for sale a therapeutic product that does not have a market authorization or is not a designated therapeutic product.

I don’t even really get what that means. Most of the Bill is very wordy anyhow. What I do know is this; the government has major control over our food supply (raw milk anyone?), profits off of the pharmaceutical industry and I believe is realizing what the public realized a while back- natural healing methods work as both preventative and treatment. The government wants in on it.

Reading books like Michael Pollan’s ‘In Defense of Food’ and Marion Nestle’s ‘Food Politics’ clearly illustrates where the government and general population have gone awry when it comes to taking care of our own health. Where we went wrong was listening to what the government said we should be eating and trusting the chemical laden foods they approve as safe, eating in line with their food pyramids and Recommended Daily Intakes (RDIs) of nutrients.

I think the biggest challenge I have with this Bill, and likely the reason I haven’t been willing to give it much thought, is that I don’t believe this will actually happen. I know it’s possible, but I just can’t believe our government would pass a bill that would ensure the health of this country continues in a downward direction. But then again- why would I assume differently? When I got sick two years ago and couldn’t find a doctor to help me, my family paid for my natural healing route which included acupuncture, supplements, herbal remedies, whole foods, and yoga. With these natural therapies I stayed off prescription medications, out of a hospital bed, out of the operating room, and away from any leaves of absence from work. I saved the government thousands, maybe tens of thousands of dollars. When I submitted my expenses for tax purposes and was granted a refund of close to $3,000.00, it only took three months for them to realize their error and ask for the money back… and of course they charged me interest

If this Bill is passed, it will dramatically alter the way we, natural/holistic practitioners, have to practice. I have no doubt in my mind however that we will manage. That we will find ways to get what we need for our clients, for our families and for ourselves. Unlike the pharmaceutical industry and the government, our commitment to the health industry is about making and keeping people healthy, not making our shareholders happy. Laws such as these make our jobs more difficult, but government approval to promote certain chemical based foods such as margarine as a means of reducing heart disease, has already done that.

I promise my next post will be back to sunshine and rainbows. Until then- I encourage you have a read through the Bill and make your voice heard.

  • Stop Bill C-51
  • Canada’s Ongoing War on Freedom
  • Big Pharma Pushing to Criminalize Supplements
  • Facebook Group: Stop Bill C-51
  • The first thing most people say to me when we sit down to have a consultation is “I think I eat fairly well”. The trouble with that statement is that eating well is a relative thing. And also- I am not sure that any of us really know what ‘eating well’ means anymore.

    I spent this past week a the Canadian Holistic Nutrition Conference listening to about half a dozen different speakers, meeting with product reps, and speaking with other nutritionists.  Many of the speakers had conflicting ideas on what constitutes a healthy diet. Two of the speakers actually sited the same study, but used it in completely opposite arguments. So if nutritionist are confused about what to eat, I can only imagine how the public feels.

    Everyday there are new studies coming out about what to eat, what not to eat, what will save us, and what will take us down.

    In my opinion, it is not even so much what we are eating that makes the difference but more so where, how, why and when we are eating it.  Very few people these days take the time to go to the store, buy groceries, prepare a fresh meal, sit down at a table and enjoy the food. Most often we are doing a million things at one time and eating just happens to be one of them.

    We are so preoccupied with the what- that we seem to have forgotten the vital importance of the where, how, why and when. Are we at our desks, in front of the tv, or in the car? Is our food coming from a restaurant, a microwave, a deep fryer? Are we eating because we are sad, lonely, stressed, bored? And are we having our first meal at 3:00 in the afternoon and our last meal at midnight?

    I do believe that we all inherently know what we should and should not be eating and the best ways in which we should be enjoying our meals. Sometimes, though, it helps to have some guidance, some support and some motivation.

    As I wrote about back when I was in St. Lucia, I was eating to my little heart’s content. With a piece of bread and butter in one hand and a glass of wine in the other, I knew what I was doing. I knew what these foods were doing inside me and I knew how that would make me feel long term if I kept it up. I was also fortunate that I knew what to do to get myself back on track, and I now am.  I did however go and see a nutritionist.

    I didn’t go see someone because I needed help. I went, mainly because seeing this nutritionist is a patient requirement of my doctor. Despite knowing as much as I know, I learned from her. It is much easier to give someone else advice than to give yourself advice. We looked at my diet, noticed some macronutrient imbalances and she made recommendations for me. I left there with a packet of information, most of which I was already familiar with, and a collection of recipes. I was motivated! I came home, cooked up some new things, added new foods into my diet and a week later, I am already feeling wonderful.

    Nutritionist are great people to have in our lives. I am happy to have one and I am happy to be one for others. Just like we all have dentists and doctors, many of us may have physiotherapists, massage therapists, psychotherapists, naturopaths, and personal trainers, I think we should all also have a nutritionist.  Whether we know what we should eat or not, a little motivation and a little guidance goes a long way. No matter how well, we think we might be eating, we can always learn from someone else.

    I am officially opened for business! My practice is all set up and I am busily collecting new clients. Want to be one of them? Go to www.meghantelpner.com for more information on my services and to find out a little more about what a nutritionist can do for you.

    Graduation Day!

    Yes, I have returned from St. Lucia and just in time too. Today was my graduation ceremony from the Institute of Holistic Nutrition. And I did consider skipping it and staying SL a little while longer- but then- who would have delivered my valedictorian address?  Sorry the video is a little fuzzy. The ceremony took place in a cinema and it was a wee bit dark in there.

    My stay in St. Lucia went by so fast that when the time came for me to go- I just wasn’t ready.  So here I am. Still here. Still happy. Still loving the sunshine and rainbows. I will be home next week.

    Eating three meals a day at a resort has apparently been taking its toll on me. I am getting fat. Yes. Fat. And I am perfectly a-okay with that.  It has been a super fun process.

    Three and a half years ago, when I stayed at this resort with my mother for my 25th birthday, I was not well. I couldn’t eat anything without getting sick, and worse than that, I was afraid to eat. I spent a week eating only steamed vegetables and rice. Come to think of it, I spent nearly four years eating only steamed vegetables and rice.

    Over the past 9 weeks that I have been here, I have slowly begun to realize that I can now eat whatever it is that I want… in moderation of course.  It is extremely difficult to stick to any sort of health regime when living at a 5-star resort with healthy buffets, yummy wines and amazing desserts available any time of day. So yes, I have been eating three big meals a day, treating myself to cakes and cookies and drinking wine and loving each and every second of it.

    I have been breaking all my rules of healthy eating. All my rules but one- sometimes when something is good for our spirit, it is good for our health. There is no point indulging if we are going to feel guilty about it. So I indulge and I enjoy it and I smile. My not worrying about each and every little thing I eat, is good for my health.

    A friend had once said to me that coming out here would give me a good dose of reality. I would be removed from my little nutrition bubble and be exposed to the way ‘normal’ people eat. He was right… at least about this.

    I would say that 80% of the people I meet with, meet with me because they are unhappy with their weight. Most of them look perfectly healthy to me. When the symptoms of Crohn’s got worse for me, I went on this extreme detox program where I lost close to 20 pounds in under a month (a lot for me being only 5 feet tall). The sick thing was how many people, including the personal trainer that I was working with at the time, told me how great I looked. That’s enough to screw up anyone’s self image.

    As I got healthier and began to gain the weight back, I was very conscious of each and every pound. I have never been a skinny girl- never really wanted to be. I have at last come to embrace each and every pound (and the few extras collected while down here) as a sign of my good health. For me, it is a sign of health that I have the capacity to gain weight. I may have gone a touch overboard while being here, but I am no longer afraid to eat, to try new things, or to treat myself, once in a while.

    Of course though, everything I say here must be taken with a grain of salt (no pun intended) as I am quite sure that my idea of indulgence is still far from the way the average person eats.

    When I go home at the end of the week, I will be back to my old healthy eating. It has nothing to do with how much I weigh, or how tight my jeans might be. It is about how I feel. It has always been about how I feel. Nine weeks of indulgence- eating too much, having a drink now and again, sneaking in an oatmeal cookie, not sleeping nearly enough… well- it has taken its toll. I am ready to get back on that healthy train. I am ready to get back to my fighting weight- not for the sake of actually fighting the weight but about getting back to a place where I feel my absolute strongest and healthiest.

    My life at home is very different than my life living at a resort. For the last 9 weeks I have been feeding my spirit each and every thing it desired and it has been blissful. I know that I could not live like this forever but I wouldn’t want to. I have had a tough four years with my health, and I honestly could not think of a better way of celebrating my journey than by indulging in a glass of wine, while watching the sunset with good friends and an ocean breeze.

    I can not stress enough, and I tell each and every person I consult with that if we are going to treat ourselves, we must treat ourselves with the best. The best butter, the best cheeses, the best wine, the best bread, the best chocolate, the best pastries. The best the best, the best… of the things that are the worst for us. We must enjoy them with good company, in a good environment, with a good mood, a good toast, a good celebration. We must make these indulgences count. We must ultimately enjoy them. If that piece of chocolate cake will make us feel guilty, or that second trip to the buffet will cause us to make excuses- the negative feelings we have about ourselves or about our actions will be more detrimental to our health than the actual indulgence itself.

    There is no harm in treating ourselves once in a while. Once in a while that is. Overindulging our spirit, for too long, will leave our physical body in a less than optimal state.

    During this amazing time in St. Lucia, my spirit has been thoroughly nourished. I am now ready to get back to the leafy greens.

    I can’t believe that my time here is half way past already. Of course I can also say that I still have half left, but the last three weeks have gone by far too quickly. When guests tell me they’re leaving, I am always so surprised. Seems to me that they, and myself, have only just arrived.

    I have settled in well and am loving my little life here. I wake up every morning and walk out onto my little patio to brush my teeth and enjoy how good it smells and how wonderfully warm it is even first thing in the morning. Every morning, the gratitude is ever present.

    The best part of all of this- and this is likely the part that would have come no matter where I was working- is that I love what I do. I love my job and am loving my work. When you hear people say that they love their job so much they would do it for free- I can tell you that I do, and as an intern I am working for free but working no less than I would otherwise.

    In addition to loving the work that I am doing here- the people I come in contact with are so appreciative, so respectful, so open to the information being imparted and both guests and my colleagues continually praise my efforts.

    I mentioned in a post about how just because you’re good at something doesn’t necessarily mean you should do it. I wrote about this in the context as it related to my job-hopping in advertising and how I kept being told I was good at my job, and should stick with it despite hating it.

    My fear at the time I wrote that post, and as I entered nutrition school was that I had at last found something that I truly loved and was passionate about, but worried that I wouldn’t be any good at it. I was afraid that I would be the nutritionist equivalent of the American Idol auditions- those people who think they were born to sing but sound like suffocating squirrels.

    The feedback I am getting in regards to my consults, my hotel meal planning, my detox and weight loss program plans, my whole foods and cholesterol lectures, my meditation classes, my giggle, and my white outfits have been so overwhelmingly positive that at the end of everyday when I get into bed, I can’t help but smile- feeling incredibly excited about what I have accomplished that day and the challenges that will come my way.

    Though working at a resort is very different from my idea of a regular nutrition practice, there are definitely advantages- the main one being that I get to come in to contact with so many people on a daily basis. This means that I get to answer that many more questions, address that many more concerns and hopefully positively influence that many more people.

    I have often praised those who played an important role in my own healing- Dr. Ha and Ping who were my acupuncturists, my meditation and yoga teachers in LA, the instructors I had in Nutrition school… I can only hope that in my passing along the gifts of knowledge these brilliant individuals bestowed upon me, that I might have earned the honour of becoming one of those people in someone else’s journey to health and wholeness.

    In one of my nutrition classes, the instructor spoke to us about staying in our area of brilliance. She was speaking in relation to hiring an accountant if we weren’t so up on our tax laws and spending the better part of time actually working as nutritionists. The thinking was that the more we stay in our area of brilliance, the more successful we will be in our careers.

    I believe that this is vital in all careers- or perhaps in all facets of life. We must figure out the parts of our jobs, or the areas in our lives where we feel the happiest, the most fulfilled, the most satisfied, the most nourished and the most alive and be with that. Make that which makes us feel full and energized dominate how we spend most of our time.

    Why on earth would we want to focus our energy and our lives on tasks, roles, people, or relationships that deplete us, drain us, and exhaust us? A simple question but so many of us do. I did for a long time. I still spend more time than I would like in an office on a computer but I spend more time outside meeting with people and that is what I love the most. That is the role, the task, the position in which I feel energized and nourished by the work that I am doing.

    I had lunch today with my manager and as we were walking back up to the spa we ran into a group of returning guests who all warmly greeted him. As we passed them he said to me- ‘That is why I love my job’.

    The parts of our lives that afford us such feeling of fulfillment and purpose are ultimately our area of brilliance. For when we are at our best, we will also get the best of others. Why would we want to exist in any other way?

    Once in a while, ask yourself these questions:

    1. Of the things I do, what nourishes me, what increases my sense of actually being alive and present rather than merely existing?

    2. Of the things that I do, what drains me, what decreases my sense of actually being alive and present?\

    3. Accepting that there are aspects of my life that I simply cannot change, am I consciously choosing to increase time and effort in activities that bring me up and to decrease the time and effort I give to activities that bring me down?

    For the duration of my time working at the spa, I was instructed to wear all white. I have never in my life done very well with being told what to wear (or what to do in general) but I figured that I’d be best off playing by the rules.

    For the past two weeks I have been dressed in white from head to toe. Guests and the people I work with keep commenting on the fact that I am always in white. I haven’t a clue why I was told to wear all white. I am the only one in all white but it is all I brought. It does make getting dressed in the morning easy- but since in my world, all colours match- I never had much of a problem anyway. The point being, I feel a bit silly in these flowy white clothes. Like a marshmallow- or perhaps a fluffy cloud. Either way- I told this to my mom and she said that I may look like a cloud, but perhaps, I am more of the silver lining. Mom’s are sweet like that.

    As my first full week of working here, actually my first week ever working as a nutritionist, comes to an end, I have remembered what I liked about having a job. Every job- no matter what it is, has its’ perks. As I am not only embodying a silver lining, I also like to look for the silver lining in everything and the perks of a job is the silver lining of work.

    I have realized that, though at the end of the day work is work, it is best to find work where the perks are exactly what we thrive on. We all thrive on different things. Whether our job affords us plenty of interaction with others, golf trips, beer nights, travel, great co-workers, great challenge… whatever it is- the benefits have to be suited to us.

    I certainly had my challenges the first half of the week when I found myself back in an office setting, sitting at a desk with a computer while outside my window the sun was shining, the ocean was crashing and happy people were laying around vacationing. It took me a few days to come to an understanding and an acceptance of the fact that I am not actually on vacation but here to work. As with most jobs mine involves time in front of a computer. What gets me through the hours I have been spending inside working are the amazing perks of working where I am working.

    Going to work in the morning, I walk along this beautiful road in the early morning heat with horses and cows and an occasional goat roaming around. I am consulting with guests who are relaxed, blissed-out, kind, smiling and patient and that is a gift.

    When I leave my office for lunch, I join the guests in the main restaurant, meet new people as we eat together looking out over the ocean. Before going back to work, I go for a quick swim in the sea and walk along the beach to dry off. If I have down time in the afternoon, I can pop into the fitness studio and join in for a yoga, pilates or dance class.

    I work with other practitioners who are like minded- we share information and remedies. I spoke to the shiatsu practitioner while we were both waiting for our clients about some nutritional issues and she then offered to give me a massage the following day. On my day off I got a full body massage and then spent the afternoon at the beach. I had dinner that night with a couple on their honeymoon. The husband was a gastroenterologist and we have since exchanged emails as he is quite keen on learning about nutritional support for Inflammatory Bowel Conditions. That may be the best connection I’ve made so far.
    When the massage therapists are doing training sessions and need an extra body- I generously lend mine for any sort of massages, facials or wraps. After work today, I joined the guests for tea time and watched some of my co-workers put on a circus performance. Best of all, I get to watch the sunset over the ocean everyday. If I chose to, I can stay at the resort for dinner, where I usually have dinner with some of the management or guests that I met in the day.

    At the end of it all- it is a job. Like all jobs- there are elements of the work that I love and certain people I really enjoy working with. On the flip side, I have also been assigned tasks that I would be happy to not have to do and there are also people that I do my best to have minimum contact with. I quickly forgot about the politics of working with large organizations but this experience has again reminded me of the little games that are played.

    Jobs and working and doing things we don’t want to do and interacting with people or situations we would rather avoid is simply part of life. There is no way around it. The important thing however is be certain to take notice of all the positives before the negatives. The benefits of any situation- whether it be a job, or a relationship, or an environment- must outweigh the negatives.

    It is our own individual responsibility to see the bright spot- to focus on the silver lining rather than the darkness of the cloud. If that silver lining just doesn’t seem to exist- it then becomes our own responsibility to make the changes either in ourselves or in our situation that will enable that silver lining to sparkle brightly in the sunshine.

    Must run- have a pilates class to catch followed by pool-side drinks. Another tough day at the office.

    Prior to departing for St. Lucia my friend and fellow nutritionist Cora told to me that no matter what, I must wake up everyday knowing what an amazing opportunity this is and to be grateful for and enjoy each and every moment to its fullest.  For the most part, I have been, but when I woke up Tuesday morning with so many mosquito bites on my face that my left eye was partially swollen shut and due to my clogged bathroom sink, found a drowned mouse there to greet me- try as may, I just couldn’t see the sunshine and rainbows in that- especially since I could only really see out of one eye.

     

    A roller coaster of events followed. A shiny clean place really close to the resort became available. I packed up and moved out of the old place.  I briefly found myself in the main town of Castries, wandering the streets looking for the bank, the only white person in site dressed in my pristine spa whites head to toe. I met up with the chef who was picking up his car from a ‘body shop’ which was really a tarp stretched out between two trees. The agent never showed up with the keys for my new place. I was temporarily homeless. Rich, one of the senior managers at the hotel, scored me a sweet ocean front hotel room to keep me from sleeping in a lounge chair on the beach. The old landlord called a lawyer who threatened to send the police after me. A day late, I at last got keys to my new place, unpacked and settled in. If this experience is meant to challenge me, my sunshine and rainbows outlook, my equanimity and optimism- this past week has been nothing short of a great challenge.

     

    However, after a week of shimmying and shaking and getting my bearings - I know what I have to do.  My nutrition antennae is up, and unlike my Digicel mobile phone, it is getting crystal clear reception.

     

    I have this horrible habit of eavesdropping on other’s conversations. Try as I might, I can never tear myself away from listening in on other people’s conversations and I am not the least bit subtle either and since being here- all I hear people talk about is nutrition.

     

    Last night, sitting at dinner with Rich and two of his friends, I overhear this woman showing pictures on her camera to another couple “And this is our Thanksgiving Turkey in the deep fryer…”. At another table one woman is telling another about the horrible reflux she gets from taking her vitamins.  This afternoon I was in the ladies room up at the spa when two ladies come in talking about their bowel habits. One saying she goes every day and the other lady expressing envy and sharing that she hadn’t gone in three days.

     

    I knew that the guests would be receptive to a nutritionist lurking around. I didn’t realize the locals would also be so full of questions. One trip to the supermarket and it is clear why. Produce costs a fortune and everything else is processed.  Even the rice is parboiled and imported from the US. The spa staff orders Dominos pizza when they aren’t eating the fried foods offered in the staff canteen. There are ads for KFC everywhere and 1 in 3 St. Lucians have type two (adult onset) diabetes.  The health epidemics of North America are spreading as far and wide as Coca-Cola and McDonald’s. Pardon my dramatics but it seems to me that the entire population of the planet is starving- either overfed and undernourished with processed garbage or just plain starving.

     

    What I have realized being here is that people both want and need information.  Truthful information.  They want options. They want to know how to feel better. That is what I am here for.

     

    My role as the nutritionist at the spa seems less to do with actually working as a nutritionist and more to do with being an educator on the subject of nutrition. What is interesting is that this is a health-focused spa, so the majority of guests (or at least one half of each couple) is health conscious. All anyone seems to be talking about is health and wellness, supplements, diets (apparently the Special K diet is all the rage in the UK and might be one of the stupider ones I’ve ever heard of), diabetes and cholesterol. Everyone seems to be sharing the oddest information. Untrue and unfounded information they whole-heartedly believe, without fully understanding, because an ‘expert’ said so.

     

    What has become clear since being here and away from my little world of nutritionists, is how little people know and how quickly they buy in to whatever they’re told. They are hungry (pardon the pun) for answers and for explanations as to why they feel the way they do.

     

    To do the best job possible while I am here and into my practice at home, all I need to do is simply offer the most truthful information I can so that each individual I meet with will be educated enough to make their own decisions and more importantly, understand why.

     

    In the end it all comes down to trust and integrity. When we are seeking information, and when we are looking for answers, what we ultimately want is simply the truth. Whether it pertains to a thieving landlord, a doctor, a spouse, or a nutritionist, we are all just seeking out people we can trust who conduct themselves with honesty and integrity. And like with most qualities we seek in others- we must first embody them ourselves.

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